wish you were here

2007-10-03T18:46:00.000-07:00

Ahhh I found out the name of my niece today..

Aaylah Jayse Gibson.
Jayse after my brother, her dad..Jason. Aw cute.
Aaylah Pronounced "A-lah"
She will be here in about two weeks..depending on when she decides to welcome herself to the world.
I'm so excited!
I'll be back in Texas in a week..yay!

seemingly simple.

2007-09-11T12:18:00.000-07:00

So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It’s your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.
Let the peace of Christ keep you in tune with each other, in step with each other. None of this going off and doing your own thing. And cultivate thankfulness. Let the Word of Christ—the Message—have the run of the house. Give it plenty of room in your lives. Instruct and direct one another using good common sense. And sing, sing your hearts out to God! Let every detail in your lives—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way.

-Colossians 3:12-17
The Message : The Bible in Contemporary Language.

I need to learn to control my temper, it's been a problem that has been burdening my heart lately. I'm so quick to retaliate..and it's a really horrible flaw. I've been praying for a gentle spirit. I can't decide if that aspect of my personality is a product of being raised around all boys who were sort of..harsh..and made it clear that I was to always stand up for myself no matter what..or if this is just something I inherited or if it's one of the ways satan chooses to tempt me.
Maybe it's a little of each. I'm really thankful for grace and I'm trying concentrate on learning how to give it to others.

Yep.
So there's that..and..I really like the lyrics to this song:

needle and thread [Sleeping at Last]

When the world welcomes us in,
We're closer to Heaven than we'll ever know.
They say this place has changed,
But strip away all of the technology
And you will see
That we all are hunters,
Hunting for something that will make us okay.
Here we lay alone in hospital beds,
Tracing life in our heads;
But all that is left
Is that this was our entrance and now it's our exit,
As we find our way home.
All the blood and all the sweat
That we invested to be loved
Follows us into our end,
Where we begin to understand
That we are made of love,
And all the beauty stemming from it.
We are made of love,
And every fracture caused by the lack of it.
"You were a million years of work,"
Said God and His angels, with needle and thread.
They kissed your head and said,
"You're a good kid and you make us proud.
So just give your best and the rest will come,
And we'll see you soon."
All the blood and all the sweat
That we invested to be loved
Follows us into our end,
Where we begin to understand
That maybe Hollywood was right:
When the credits have rolled and the tears have dried,
The answers that we have been dying to find
Are all pieced together and, somehow,
Made perfectly mine.
We are made of love,
And all the beauty stemming from it.
We are made of love,
And every fracture caused by the lack of love.

weekend.

2007-09-09T14:48:00.000-07:00

I have had a very lazy weekend and I think I needed it.
Friday I went to the movies with my friend Jennifer who last week had her gallbladder removed.

Which for those of you who are curious this:

Is where your gallbladder is.

I've been trying to check on her (she lives upstairs) but she never remembers that I come in and she hadn't been able to communicate with me until a few days ago. Anyway she wanted to get out of the house so we went to see Nanny Diaries, it was good..I thought..but I like really simple movies..I guess I'm just shallow like that. Saturday was spent going with Jennifer to run some errands...and then she got a tattoo...by some crazy woman who was blasting country music and telling us how she was "sweating like a hog."

Today I slept..a lot...I e-mailed some people and talked to my roommates.. tonight I'm going to dinner with a friend and then it'll be time to get serious on some Spanish advanced grammar homework. Yikes.

I'll be in Denton in ...11 days. I'm really excited.

I hope I get to go by the home and visit.

I have a really boring life.

jubilee

2007-09-05T22:19:00.000-07:00

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2007-08-28T17:33:00.000-07:00

Not too much news to report..I don't do many exciting things..just work and class and hanging out every now and then...but..here are some pictures...anyway.

This is a group of us who went to Jackson Saturday night for a 21st birthday party..we were at Red Lobster...yep.

This is Kara and I at The Tavern..exciting..yeah.

So as you can see ...my life is so exciting. My classes are getting a lot better because people aren't talking so much..maybe they were just trying to suck up at first or something?

I'm going to post pictures of my house soon..that's pretty exciting right!?

I cannot wait to be in Texas...I miss it sooo much!

Awww look at Jennie and I...and a child who decided bunny ears were still funny....ha.

Annnnyway.
That's it.

we don't need no education

2007-08-23T08:54:00.000-07:00

I have decided that I hate my school and the town that it is in.
Maybe it's because I've been a lot of places and lived a few places and I know that it gets so much better than this.
I'm losing my mind around here.
The majority of people in my classes are old. Like. 30 something and up.
This is not a problem normally..but when the classes are lecture/discussion, it becomes a large pain in the right side of my head. Every person feels like class time is their therapy session and they feel the need to share personal stories or stories about their dog or their cousin's wife's sister's husband. No one cares.. I mean..someone might care who is not paying to listen to you whine about your messy divorce or your views on why marijuana should be legal or why "yous a-wishin' youda signed one-a dem thur prenup thangs." Someone. shoot. me.
There's a time and a place.
Preferably not at 8 AM in room 106 on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Thanks.

I don't want to be here anymore...it's not just senioritis or whatever either, it's deeper than that. I really just don't belong anywhere near this town.
It's pretty much a black hole.

I do like the idea of being in my classes. I just don't like the way they seem to be going.
I like to learn..Bethel isn't necessarily the place for such an activity.

and...end vent.

love..pain..and the whole thing.

2007-08-21T20:25:00.000-07:00

I started school today. I suppose I technically started yesterday but so far I don't have any classes on Monday-Wednesday-Friday. I do have a job now..I started yesterday. I overslept and missed my first class of the semester which is really out of character for me and makes me pretty upset, actually. I blame this on the fact that I worked five hours yesterday and then drove three hours home to go to my best friends graduation/goodbye party and then drove three hours back to school. I have driven way too much in the past week of my life.

Here are my classes:
REL 311 Prophets of Israel
REL 310 The Christian Ministry
SOC 213 Social Issues in the Community/World
SOC 214 The Family
SPA 311 Advanced Grammar

Saying goodbye to MaryKate yesterday was pretty awful.

That is MaryKate.. with her baby brother Carson.. Anyway.. Mary and I have been best friends since we were 15 and we went to college thirty minutes apart and we spent every moment possible together for the past seven years. She signed a two year contract to work in Arkansas 11 hours away..and although I know she is going to be doing what she loves...I'm going to miss her terribly. Bummer. I guess I should be thankful that I have someone in my life like MaryKate to miss.

I am going back to Texas on September 20th..my lovely boyfriend bought me a plane ticket to come visit him for his 23rd birthday. I'm so so so excited.

I've been pretty sad to be back. I really miss Jeremy and Jennie and all the kids. It sucks to always be missing people.
Ohhh well.

One of my books is going to cost 110 dollars. How insane is that? College..geez.

I'm not sure how often I'll post in this, considering I only know two people who use it...but it might be a good place to vent sometimes anyway.

Also, in the middle of typing this post a gigantic katiedid flew in my room and my roommate and I spent ten minutes trying to remove it. Actually..she spent ten minutes trying to remove it while I hid in the corner and squealed. ha.